Hi Y'all
Since I am stuck down here thanks to Eric N Northman and left with a sense of not knowin who the hell to trust anymore I have nothin to do to pass the time but think and boy do I have a lot to think about.
Now I know what I am and BOY I never saw that comin. I always knew I was different but I thought that was just cause I was a freakish human but part FAIRY!!! Maybe even an Alien, so I was right- take that Russell!!! At least though while I am stuck here I am gonna have time to come to terms with it cause I aint got damn alk else to do but sleep and think, If I am lucky I may even get fed.
Sleep leads to dreams leads to...well even more confusion. I mean is it the blood or do I actually enjoy the dreams I have of Eric? Should I do as he said in the dream and just go with it? Do I have feelings for him? and is it my survivial instinct talkin when he said I am not to trust Bill instead of the Blood or his ulterior motives?
I am more convinced that ever that Bill is hidin somethin yet neither him nor Eric wanna give up the goods which just makes me even madder. I swear if I can find a big stick or somethin down here He is gonna GET IT!!! Right upside his head, hell it may even wipe the damn smirk off his face!
Then there was that Kiss before he decided to revert to type and be an asshole. For that brief moment he was decent and he actually let me see somethin of him, before he left and came back through the door as Mr Asshole and threw me in here!
I cannot lie, y'all know that, but I did ah enjoy it and I mean really enjoy it. We ah connected for that brief moment and he has had a LOT of practice at this how could I not respond to him. If Pam had not walked in well who knows where it was gonna go. i have a feelin that if she had not walked in it WAS gonna go somewhere. Did I want that? Now that is a question, and I have all the time to answer it....
TO BE CONTINUED...