I have just roused myself finally dear diary but it was with reluctance and trepidation for I did not want to face reality for as long as I could. and now that I am facin reality and the hopeful end of my time here all I can do is write down what I can remember of that place, so that I may treasure it in future dire times.
I was not here when I slept, I do not know where I was, not really. I was in a vast living room with big comfy lookin sofas piled with cushions and it was all dimly lit, mainy by the roarin log fire that dominated one wall. I was sitting on a big rug in front of the fire, just lost in my thoughts and listening to the noises of the night creatures from outside. I was not alone though, Eric was with me, lying beside me on the rug just talkin about stuff. Just normal stuff, you know gettin to know each other stuff. I was lazily playin with his hair as we talked and shared things about ourselves. As the fire glowed brightly we lost all track of time, nothin exisited beyond that room and it was as though we were only livin for each other. We talked all night, till sunrise and he carried me off to the light tight bedroom where we fell asleep in each other's arms. We were in blissful unconsciousness, safe and away from any dangers there might be. All were forgotten as we lay in this haven.
The next night we walked in the moonlight in the most beautiful woods I had ever known, Eric showed me the stars and told me of them, he told me things of his life both human and vampire, that he had never shared before. I told him of mine both the good times and the pain. he held me close when I talked of the pain to comfort me and I appreciated that. We walked on to a beutiful lake and sat at the shore for a while, mr resting in Eric's arms while he leant against a tree and we enjoyed the silence.
In the beauty and serenity of that place we kissed solwly and deeply. lettin our natural urges and feelings for each other take over us. Eric made gentle love to me by the shore of that lake, the moon and stars our only companions. Where we had known each others lives the night before, tonight we were knowin each others bodies in every way, sharin each other's desires and needs, sharing each others blood as we let our guards fall away along with our clothes. I gave myself to him over and over that night, till the mornin scents invaded the air and we escaped back to the safety of the house.
We spent our time like this, in this little cocoon of pleasure, knowin only each other, livin for only each other. All had ceased to exist outside this place and no trouble, danger, pain or strife could invade.
I wish it really could be like this but I know that this is unlikely and therefore I have to settle for my dream and my memories of it....
I will still wish for it though....HARD....